1 Samuel 15:16-23
As we begin to develop a personal relationship with Jesus, hearing from God becomes a quest each of us embarks on. I remember when hearing God’s still, small voice first became a desire in my heart. I would begin every day in silence, listening for what God might have to say to me.
A couple things happened within just a few short weeks. I began to identify which of my neighbors were leaving for work, simply by the noise I heard when they slammed their car door. I also became great at planning my day. Within seconds of closing my eyes to listen to God, I began running through the events scheduled on my calendar over the next twelve hours. I even became a master at being able to identify periods of ten minutes intervals. It was one of the most frustrating seasons of my life.
There are several things I was doing wrong, but for the sake of this post, I’ll keep my thoughts centered on today’s reading. I was spending time in my Bible every day. The amount of time I was spending in prayer significantly increased. I had even started volunteering at the church I was a member of at the time. I would like to say I was doing everything a Christian is called to do. Everything except repenting of sin.
I was still using the same filthy, disgusting language I always had. Thoughts of what I wanted to do to the attractive women I would see in bikinis at the beach still dominated my thinking. I still had a habit and ability to tell others exactly what they wanted to hear, with the sole purpose of getting whatever it was I needed for myself. Looking back, now, I would say I wanted to love Jesus. I simply didn’t realize everything that entailed.
I don’t want to give the wrong impression. Hearing from God is not something we earn through our behaviors and actions. However, if God is significant enough in our lives that we want to hear from Him, it should be demonstrated in the way we live. There will always be sin in our lives. That being said, I have just one question. If you were God, would you want to spend time talking to you based on the faith that is demonstrated by your obedience?